I have spent the past 15 years studying growth and transformation. My life has been the testing ground for the work I now do with others.
The Path I Was Offered
Not long ago I was depressed. I was angry and felt powerless to create anything resembling a life I could love. I felt let down by my schooling and frustrated with my career options. I dropped out of college without hope. For 13 years I worked in the security industry. At first I worked with my hands. Later I was a consultant for organizations such as the New York Federal Reserve and Fortune 100 companies.
I was good at what I did but I was bored, unmotivated and dreaded waking up many weekdays. I knew life could be more than a grind, but I was terrified of walking away from the success I had and reluctant to start at the bottom in a new career. In every spare moment I studied, practiced, played and waited for something to shift. After 13 years I walked away. I left NYC to live on a mountain for a year. I broke all my patterns and looked at what remained.
The Path I Chose
What I have discovered is that sometimes I and sometimes my circumstances need to change. It is only when both move in concert that true transformation is possible. When I left school I took control of the information that enters my mind and the values that I assign it. My path has led me from a place of darkness, depression and years of suicidal thinking to one of much joy and light with a deep spirituality. I am comfortable in both places and see the gifts in each.
Getting in touch with my sense of purpose in the world, owning my intuition and learning to take small, then ever bigger leaps into the unknown has transformed my life. I no longer act from fear. I act from wonder. I truly believe that we are all capable of this. Hopefully with my help others can get there much faster. Because of this I have a deep desire to be with and help others on the path of self actualization.
Growth and transformation are inevitable. Life is change. Seeing beyond and moving past perceived limitations is a crucial step. This drive often comes up during a trying period (cancer, depression, death of a loved one) but can equally be chosen out of abundance. Both processes are beautiful. People may seek me out when they have something that they struggle sharing with others or when they are looking to be shown a hard truth that their own perspective has left in shadow. Sometimes we just need someone on our side who can see our gifts better than we can.
The Choice I Offer
I will see your potential and hold you to it. Tough love with an integral perspective is my default mode. Lifestyle integrity is about healing the boundaries that we have drawn within our own lives. It is about waking up and transforming your life. This is my passion. My personal goal is to have my higher self show up fully at work and play, with friends, family and strangers. Finding and working with others on a similiar path is my reason for getting out of bed in the morning.
Mostly I am an autodidact. My curiosity knows no bounds. What I learn I hope to share with you. I am a Certified Holistic Health Counselor having studied health at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition. I am a Certified Integral Relationships Professional. I am a student of Integral Philosophy based on the work of Ken Wilber. Along with graduate level study of the theory I have led Integral Life Practice groups, deeply engaged my own practice and am a leader of the Integral Salon in NYC. I have been meditating for over a decade utilizing mostly Zen and TM (Trancendental Meditation). I do extensive breath and body work inspired by the Art of Living Foundation and different yogas. Look for me at Jivamukti in NYC. I love functional strength, especially if it includes body weight exercises. I am Reiki level II trained. I believe in the power of being radically honest and vulnerable with others. I know conscious capitalism can exist in businesses big and small and I think exploratory conversations are great, but even better when they are grounded in action in our lives.
A number of my clients have been women with eating disorders and/or abuse in their lives. Opening up conversations such as this across the gender divide is something I hold dear and see as one step towards healing issues that are always both extremely personal and societal at the same time. Many of those I work with come from relative privilege and know the deep torment of existential angst devoid of meaning. Some have questions about physical health. Some want a new career. Some just have a subtle sense that life can be more.
Take a look at your relationships, your career, your health and your connection to spirit. Do you seem room for growth and transformation? Does this excite you?